As I stand and stare at myself in the mirror I totally hate what I see. I’ve had two babies, and I’ve neglected myself. My face is chubby, my tummy is wobbly, I have fat on my hips. My ass has expanded… and my boobs! The less said about them the better!! Haha.
I have always been a little bit fat, and probably always will be! (In the words of Bridget jones) but I remember when I loved what I saw in the mirror, and funny enough it was mostly a couple of years after I had my first baby.
Before I had my first baby, I was cabin crew. When I first started out I was probably the slimmest I’d ever been. I remember working out really hard before my training, as I didn’t want to be a fat air hostess! Ha. When I was living down in Essex completing my training I walked everywhere. So I lost more weight.
When I became cabin crew though, my party lifestyle kind of took over. When I wasn’t working, I was out drinking. Eating shitty food, and not really caring about what I put into my body. I then fell pregnant with my son and put on a crazy 5 stone! I was depressed, and comfort ate during my pregnancy, and that continued after. I went from a size 12 up to a size 20! I didn’t really care though, I didn’t really care about myself at that point.
The wake up call when I was mistook as a pregnant woman twice in one week and I knew I had to do something about it. So I chucked out all the junk food, I joined a gym and I started taking slimming pills! Slimming pills aren’t for everyone, and I know the dangers surrounding some, but I did my research and they worked for me. Over a couple of years I lost 4 stone. I felt great, I loved the way I looked and I was confident.
I met my fiancé and over the next couple of years 2 stone crept back on. I didn’t really mind though, I was still a size 14 and I was happy. Nights out, meals out, takeaways. Cosy nights in with munchies. Typical of a new relationship, and I didn’t really notice too much. When I fell pregnant with my daughter in December, I knew I wanted to be conscious of what I ate and I didn’t want to put on too much weight. I only put on 2 stone this time, and lost almost it all within a couple of weeks of having her. I haven’t stepped on the scales in a while though, but I feel like I’ve put some more of that back on again.
I make sure my kids are fed well, and drinking plenty of water, I make sure my almost 6 year old exercises often and looks after his body. I mean you only get one body, it’s important you look after it. Yet here I am, staring at the neglect! Staring at the pizza, the crisps, the chocolate, the lack of fruit and vege! Too much fizzy juice and not enough water. Why did I do it to myself. I have no will power. I struggle to say no to the junk food. When I’m tired I reach for the sugar, which in turn makes me feel more tired when it wears off, so I reach for more!
I’ve said to myself so many times over the last few weeks, it’s time to write a food and exercise plan, but I’ve yet to do it. I ordered slimming pills again to give me a boost, and my plan is to sit down and write down a proper meal plan tomorrow! (I will do it this time, I will do it this time, I will do it this time!) I have to do it this time!
People say to me but you’ve only just had a baby give yourself time, and I did promise myself I wouldn’t put pressure on myself to loose weight this time. But I feel shit! I don’t feel attractive, I hate the way my body looks, and I feel sluggish. So I have to do something about it. I have to make the small steps to start feeling good about myself again. Also I’m getting married in 2019, and I DO NOT want to be a fat bride, I just wouldn’t feel good about myself on the day.
So here is my promise to myself, I’ve publicly announced that I am holding myself accountable for my weight loss. That I’m going to sort that meal plan tomorrow and I’m going to start exercising again. Walking every day, and working out in the house!
I’d love to hear how other mums felt about their body after having their babies, and what you did to change. I’d love new recipe ideas, and post partum workout ideas. I will write another post in a months time to update you all on how it’s going, and if I managed to stick to it! Wish me luck… I think I need it 😳<< p>< /p>
Namaste – Yoga in Pregnancy – Yogabellies
When I was pregnant with my son in 2011, I really struggled with my mental health. I suffered from both prenatal and postnatal depression (this is something I will write more in depth about at a later date) so I knew this time around, I had to make sure I made my mental health a priority.
When I came across YogaBellies Falkirk page on Facebook, I was instantly interested. This was a new class starting, and I thought this would be perfect to try and keep my mind healthy and happy. I did some research and messaged the instructor, Vicky. I had never done any type of Yoga before, so wasn’t sure if I would be able to do the class.
Vicky got back to me straight away with information in regards to what classes she offered, Vicky recommended the YogaBellies for pregnancy class. The class was due to start in July, and was £89 for a block of 8 lesson. I would have been around 27 weeks pregnant, perfect for heading into my third trimester. I couldn’t wait to start the class.
Prior to the class starting, I had been sent out a few emails with links to videos, and online classes, and more information about why Yogabellies can benefit you in pregnancy, not only physically but mentally too. This made me more excited to start the class, and I knew I had made the right decision!
So my first class came, and I was so nervous. First of all I drove to the wrong place! That was totally my fault haha, so I felt a bit flustered when I arrived at the class. Although I didn’t need to worry, as I walked into the class I was greeted by the instructor, who had a super welcoming smile. She was lovely! I instantly felt at ease. The room looked lovely with yoga mats set out, and a little pile on top of the mats with a cushion, a blanket, and a yoga strap. In the middle of the room was a blanket with twinkly lights around it. There was soft soothing music on in the background, and an aromatherapy diffuser. The room was so calming. We were also all given a goody bag for starting, and inside had massage oil, different types of tea, a sample of water wipes and more.
Vicky made an effort to speak to everyone as they came in, and made everyone feel at ease. There’s nothing quite so daunting than sitting in a room full of people you don’t know and to try and talk! Well for me anyway. But as we went round the room and introduced ourself and how far on in our pregnancy we were, we all started to feel more comfortable. This would be something we would do every week, and speak about how our week had been. This I found great, especially being able to vent about a rough week, and sharing everyone’s joy as they reached certain milestones in their pregnancy.
We then moved onto our breathing exercises. These are what I found most useful in the beginning stages of my labour, and during certain parts of my pregnancy. We’d learn different techniques for each stage of labour, and I’d totally zone out during these, and just enjoy the peaceful and content feeling.
After this we’d do our yoga poses. These were adapted towards each individual. Everyone was at different stages, some ladies had done yoga before, and others like myself has never been to a yoga class. In fact my son knew more yoga poses than me! Some weeks I had bad pelvic pain, so each exercise was adapted to support this. Some ladies had high blood pressure, and sciatic pain, and again each pose was adapted as per the ladies needs. Even during these we were concentrating on our breathing, as well as strengthening our muscles for labour.
For the last 15 minutes of the class we’d get to zone out, and lie down under a blanket. Vicky would turn the lights off, and read a meditation extract. Her words and voice were so calming, it was easy to drift off, and forget about everything else in the world. It was a perfect time to zone in on my unborn baby, and just bond with her. I’d place my hand on my belly, and imagine what it would be like when she arrives, I’d imagine how my labour would be (didn’t happen how I’d imagine lol) I’d imagine what my baby would look like, how she would be when she was older. Her playing with her brother. I loved this part, I genuinely felt so relaxed and happy in my pregnancy. For me this was amazing as I hated being pregnant, but for the hour and 15 minutes each week, I enjoyed my my pregnancy!
Yogabellies for pregnancy is one of the only things I miss from being pregnant and I can’t wait to start the mother and baby yoga classes with Vicky. I’d recommend all pregnant woman to go to a Yogabellies for pregnancy class. Not only do you get to meet other pregnant ladies in your area, and talk to people who are going through the same as you, It’s great value for money, great for your physical and mental health, and a fantastic way to bond with your unborn baby. I loved every minute of it.